Havi at The Fluent Self has a wonderful habit (among many) of checking in with herself every Friday, to reflect on how the week went. I like it. I don’t have a better name for it, so for now I am stealing quietly borrowing hers.

The Hard Stuff

The work. It just. keeps. going. It’s not going to let up until after the first week of December – there’s nothing I can do about it, except keep going. The thing that makes it difficult is that I have to keep switching between Producer Sarah, Programmer Sarah and Designer Sarah. I like wearing different hats – but trying to juggle all three at the same time is pretty tiring. Such is life at a software startup, ya?

Still fighting the blues. This will be obvious to those who pay attention, but I missed last week’s Chicken. I felt really bad about it, but still watched the weekend fly by without updating.

Here’s how it went down. Friday I was way too occupied at work to take a break and write the thing. Saturday I was in and out of the house so much I still couldn’t take the time. Sunday? Well, let’s just say I didn’t get out of bed. I couldn’t. Between allergies, stress/depression, feeling generally crappy from not having myself-time, and the lure of The Deathly Hallows, I just couldn’t bring myself to face the day until it was starting to get dark.

To be fair, I did do a lot of reflecting. I just didn’t want to write it down. It took another week for me to be okay enough with the fact that I stayed in bed for an entire day, to be able to actually talk about it. What a crappy week I had to have it come to this. (This last week, after said stay-in-bed day, was better.)

The Good Stuff

This week, nothing really good happened. It didn’t suck, but there were no moments of awesome. Last week, though? Before the blahs hit?

Birthday, yeahhhh! I’m 32 now. Got all sorts of noms bought for me, which if you know me at all, you know is a very good thing.

Mao’s Last Dancer. It’s fantastic. I saw it with Jamie on Saturday, and my eyes were glued to the screen. Most of you won’t get this, but double back cabrioles? Holy business, I love it! Pretty okay story, too.

Halloween! and Your San Francisco Giants! I didn’t totally participate in either of these things, but I enjoyed being around them. It’s good to see other people being happy and having fun. It brightens everything, as long as they don’t get belligerently drunk (like tends to happen here in Vegas). I mostly avoided the bad parts.

Oh my gawd you guys, do you know what I finished?? I won’t tell you until next week. But it’s awesome. Anticipate!

Objectives Quests!

Blegh. Objectives sounds so cold and business-like, but I really do want to add a section for looking forward to next week. I need a list.

I totally failed at not freaking out. Looking at my list, it would be easy to blame a birthday, but I don’t think that was it. I think it had to do more with too much of everything, and not listening to when my body said enough is enough. I’m still not good at it, but I know it’ll just take practice.

My next quest looks like this:

  • Relax.
  • Keep putting one foot in front of the other.
  • Dance. Move. Flail. Run. Stretch. Breathe. Not all at once.

Stuff will get done, and no matter how far away the goal seems, I will feel like I have been productive.