Ugh.  Wordpress is freaking out.  I don’t want to deal with it now, though, so I’ll just write this post and get on with the rest of my evening (disclosure: I’ve been poking around for 30 minutes to no avail but frustration).

Santana was great!  I crashed on the sofa as soon as I got home, woke up at 5:30, thought “oh – that happened – again – I should go to the bedroom.”  Then I went to bed for reals.

Got to work in the nick of time this morning.  Again.  This is getting old.  I’ve already decided to clear my calendar for the entire weekend and take care of myself – gym, healthy cooking, house cleaning, organization, and hopefully some crafting (I haven’t forgotten about you, Eileen!).  Then Monday, we are down to business with the waking up thing.

If I have taken anything from the little Shiva Nata practice I’ve had, it is that the power is there if I want it.  I have started to become aware of that, but I haven’t taken advantage of it yet.  I’m not sure why I’m holding myself back.  Coming back from the indulgences of last weekend, seeing the scale, looking around at the disaster site that is my apartment, and just feeling dumpy in general has woken me up.

Work is already improving – my focus is up, and I am feeling much more productive.  I find it easier to “activate” myself there, because there I am answering directly to my team members.  I just need to carry it over into my personal life, where I am the only one who directly benefits. Realizing that I am carrying all of this mental baggage around with me, indirectly affecting others, should help me along on my path.

p.s. Gym 3 days this week!  And counting!!  Yay!!