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Now that I’m living on my own again, I am finding it very hard to take care of myself.  I have no one to present myself and my home to except me.  I feel like I’m on a little bit of a “life sabbatical”, day job notwithstanding, but it’s very stressful all the same.  One of the big reasons I came to Vegas was to get my shit together.  I am so tired at the end of the day, though, that I don’t have enough energy to do the things that need to get done.

Tonight I stayed at work late because I’ve been having trouble wrapping my head around a particularly large refactoring problem (I’ll get there, it just takes time).  At 9:45 I gave up, and went to go home.  Halfway there, I realized I felt like crap for not going to the gym yesterday, so I made a left turn at Fort Apache and hit the gym for some well-needed (deserved?) cardio.

So, great.  I got in my run, came home, took out weeks’ worth of recycling, and now it’s midnight.  No TV, no cleaning, no organizing the house, no cooking (pretzels and dried fruit passed for dinner at the office).  There’s just no time.  Come the weekend, I just need to sit on my butt to recover from the pace of the week.  I expect to start taking ballet classes a couple of days a week in September.  I don’t know how the hell they’ll fit in.

I get re-motivated about once a week.  I do well for a couple of days, and then I need to take a rest again, and things start falling off.  I miss flossing one night.  Then I fall asleep on the sofa.  I skip the gym.  I eat cereal for dinner.  It’s getting a little old.

How do You People do it?

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